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• On My Way........
  
  

  As of May 21, 2009, This is my 4th round of Taxol, I have 8 more weeks left to go and counting each one down........waiting til the last day so i can celebrate every milestone I have acomplished! I have hit a few brick walls but none has gotten in my way to continue to go ahead and just climb over them. Everyday I continue to try and stay positive, keep a smile on my face, love, hug, and kiss my children, thank God for his continue strength his had blessed me with and his guidence he has provided me. I sometimes take a moment out of day to reflect what this last year has put me through and I find myself tearing up and crying, asking why? and being so greatful that my life has been spared and reflecting on those that have not been so lucky and praying for those families that they will have some closure in their lives.

  On June 10th, 2009 my second son who is 11 will be going in to meet with a cardio group to discuss his up coming heart cath, I pray everyday that God will watch over him in hopes the surgeons will not come to me and tell me he needs another open heart surgery, My body is not up for it and niether is my mind, I look at my children everyday and have let them know they are my inspiration, My son and my daughter have both had open heart surgeries and am amazed at how strong they are how they had to fight for life and to see that and focus that in my mind is what encourages me to fight this battle, they don't let nothing come in their way they climb the tallest mountain and can just about conquer every obstacle that comes before them I am so proud them and I want them to be proud of me. I will give anything to be with my children to survive long enough to maybe one be with even great-granchildren, that is my goal, I will fight every step of the way just like my kids, I know if they can do it so can their mother, they have taught me what fighting for your life really means, its the love and bond between a child a mother that can never be broken especially one that is so tight as mine.

  I know one day i will look back at all this and remind myself what an incrediable journey this was and how proud i will be of myself for winning this fight and I will be sitting with the biggest smile on my face thanking God for being by my side every step of the way, because without him none of it would be possible.