L-Dizzle's Page

I can tell that you are really hurting.  Sorry that I was not there for you.  Most of the ladies on this site are very loving and compassiate women.  They are all fighting the same battle that you are fighting.  You are right you are so young and it should never have happened, but you can not change that fact.  At some point you must pull yourself up by your boots and face this journey.  I got sooooo angry at the beginning that I could not think.  Then I reminded myself of what I tell my 6 year old niece.  I tell her when things do not go her way and she cries or throws a fit.  You have two choose everyday you can choose to be happy or sad.  Like last night when we were at the park and her cousin wanted to play with someone else.  I told her she could be sad and sit here an cry or she could have fun in the park before we leave. 

You also have choses you can hold onto the anger or you can find some friends on this sight who help you through this journey.  There will be days that they are helping you and others where you are helping them.  You will cry with some of them and laugh with some of them.

Never feel like an outsider.  You could be one of the youngest on this site, but your input is important also,  I know you are scared and feel cheated.  Hang in there. Do you have a relationship with God?  I know that is what helps me alot.  Everyday I remind myself that He is in control and will make everything work out for the good,  I am not sure why he chose this journey for me, but I intend to make Him proud during my journey.

I really do not think that any of the girls want you to leave this site.  They are speaking in anger from not being respected.  They would love to help you.  It might would help if you posted your story on your page.  I think it is easier to help people when you know where they are coming from in life.

Please let me know if there is anything that I can do for you.  And please try to keep the vulger comment off of the site it really hurts my God.

His Child

 L-Dizzle

I sorry to hear how hard you're struggling through this ugly disease.  Everyone has their own way of dealing with such a battle.  And at your age I'm positive that is has to be a lot harder.  But I'm glad your feeling something instead of nothing.  I don't like to preach about God cause I think it a private thing.  But I've been through some hard roads, from being pregnant at 16, abused at 17 by my x-husband, my mom dying when I was 29, she was only 54 and my brother dying a year and a half ago at the age of 45, now battling breast cancer.  I know without me asking God to carry me through each of these battles I would of been lost. When I was being abused at 17 and only weighed 90lbs and I'm 5'9", my parents finally figured out something was seriously wrong.  I moved back with my parents at 18, they had me see a psychiartist it was the best thing I ever did.  They don't judge they listen and find ways to help you deal with your issues.  Today I'm a strong person because of it.

If you every want to chat my email is suzy523@aol.com

Hugs and prayers coming your way

suzy