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Thank you to all who have responded with support and love...I do appreciate all your sentiments!!!  I have had a hard time wanting to read my alerts and posts lately, as I know there is much anger that my words stir...as for those of you who have accused me of being a "sick"..."imposter" ...on here for "kicks"...your minds are pretty twisted it seems to me...and it hurts more to be accused of such a vile offense when I have lived through the hell that I have in the last 2 1/2 years...none of you have to worry about me upseting you any more.  I am leaving this site...as for your young survivor coalition...I find it to be asinine, and even less helpful to me than this site...I suppose I am just unable, and unready to accept support at this point, though I so desperately know that I want and need it...

Again, for all who have attempted to reach out with positive words and sentiments...I sincerely thank you...you do not know how much it means, even if my anger clouds my ability to accept your gracious words...

To all who have been so negative, I wish to offer you some perspective: not all who need help can accept it...sometimes those of us who are most desperate appear in the most loathesome forms...should we distribute judgement???

If I have offended any of you, I apologize...but I do not apologize for my words, for they are true thoughts and feelings, and I cannot apologize for that...

Goodbye to all of you, and my best wishes go with you in all you do!

 And I don't apologize for my words either.

And neither do I, we did not appreciate your vulgar words. You need help, find it!

Cajun Lady 

 i have to say it is to bad l-dizzle that you are having a very hard time excepting some of our help. sometimes we really don't mean what we say and going through what you or anyonelse, like myself, maybe going through we have ways to say things before we think.

i know i am not as young as you are and i know what it is like to know the impossiblities of not being a mother, i lost 2 before i was blessed with the 3 i have, but each one of my babies were premature and my youngest 2 have had to fight for life from birth, they have had to go through numerous open heart surgries and heart cathersations, so imagine this, even children have got to go through life with worse senaros than you. please try to be strong and think more positive, words can hurt many of us but i choose for them not to ruin my day or life, and they can not kill me. if i make cancer fear me than someone calling me a vulgar name can do no damage.

try and put your trust in God, maricales are performed everyday, and just because your doctors may tell you that you can not have children is a judgement toward you, they are not God, they can not determine what is in store for you, you have to take control of you and your life and what you want to make of it!

 i wish you the best and i send you my blessings, and i hope that one day you have a change of heart and come back to our site and try reaching out, we our here to support one another even if we have hurt someones feelings.

sincerly,

lisaof3

 I was just formulating a reply before when my internet suddenly went out. I am sorry, L Dizzle,  that you are having such a hard time and at such a young age. Although I will be 61 this year, I can empathize with you. Breast cancer is a devastating diagnosis at any age, but you have to remain positive. Try to surround yourself with people who will support you emotionally and psychologically. I know many people on this site are more than willing to mentor  you. I wish you all the very best and I hope you will continue to come here and just chat. I find it comforting to have people here because we all travel the same path. We're just at different stages in that path.  Big hugs to you, honey. You are young and strong and I know you can fight this. 

 L-Dizzle

The only counsel I can offer you is this.

If you didn't let Breast Cancer kill you then don't let the Anger at Breast Cancer kill you, emotional or physically. If you do that then the Breast Cancer still wins.

I have not felt anger at BC. I know other women who have had it much worse than I have and many who have not made it through this journey with their life. I have my life and I intend to live life joyfully and fully not matter what it brings.

Good luck to you in finding the peace that everyone deserves.

Lori