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 NON CANCER PEOPLE SEEM TO WANT TO HEAR THAT I AM FEELING BETTER AS TIME GOES ON.

Truth is is that this treatment has a cumulative effect and I have been dealing with this for 9 months now and i feel worse and worse. So eather i lie and try to fake feeling good(which is difficult to do when you are feeling horable) or they get sick of me complaing about all my aches and pains and side effects and no longer want to talk to me. I am so consumed w cancer as i am to to tired to do anything else so i have nothing else to talk about. thus i stay away from people sleep eat and stay depressed i take cymbalta with no luck. i went to a counseler for a while but had the same results w her as w friends. i am not doing to well. the pressure of taking care of my disabled family dosen't help eather. i have no other family members no one can help. this is the first time i posted i had to get it out. 

 Cher, I'm so sorry to hear about the hard time you're having. It does seem that once you hear that you have cancer, your life becomes consumed by it. I know mine has. And its so hard to always appear up and positive to the people around you. The additional stress of having to take care of your daughter and mother don't help either, especially when you barely have the energy to take care of yourself. I wish I could give you some answers that would help you, but I just don't have any. But I do understand. So any time you want to come here and talk, vent, cry, whatever, please feel free. We are here for you.

Cher.. I think we all understand what you feel.  You are not alone hun..  Let us know what we can do.. we will walk with you and hold your hand.... And sugar... you just VENT away!!!!!!!!!  We all do!

Hi Cher, honey I am so sorry you are having such a rough time. I also read one of your posts, your words break my heart. Cancer is such a horrible disease, it takes away so much of you. My journey started about 11 months ago, and it hasn't been easy, but I have gotten through it, and so can you. You need to get your doctor to change your anti-depressant, evidently this one isn't working. I tried 4 before one finally worked. You also need to come here and talk to us. We have some great compassionate women here who are willing to listen and try to help. I lost both breasts, but that was by choice. You can get through this, and we can help you if you wil let us. You can vent, or cry we will listen, you are around people, but you are very alone. So I extend my hand and the other ladies hands in friendship, please except it. We really do care about you. I will keep you in my prayers.Please stay in touch, you reached out once, do it again.

Cajun Lady 

 I have to say that I am taking it better than I thought I would.  I have been walking this road since last July 17th when I went for my yearly mammo.  All hell broke loose when in September I received a letter from my gynecologist's office saying I had a mass, etc.  To make matters even worse, I learned at that time through reading a local newspaper that my gynecologist passed away from pancreatic cancer.  I was stunned but had no time to even think about the doctor dying because i quickly found out I had breast cancer.  Ever since I have been on a horrible rollercoaster from hell.  I had to have two biopsies, two mammos, two ultrasounds, two MRI's, two surgeries and so on.  I have been under the care of a doctor for depression and anxiety most of my adult life and with the breast cancer diagnosis, I have found myself having erratic mood swings at times and extreme bouts of anger.  So far I have managed to keep working full time and just recently finished radiation which I found so tiring that I was angry after treatment until I finally fell asleep at around 6:30 pm and I would feel a little better.  It has been hell and some days I have such a negative outlook on life.  But the only good thing I have is my granddaughter who has given me hope and understanding and somehow has made me see how worth it she is and that I have to fight because of her.  She has asked that I quit smoking and so far I have stopped smoking.  I am trying to make the best of things as they stand.  Life is not perfect for me but I see around me that others have their share of health issues or problems and I at least am living.  I don't know if the cancer will return and that is always in the back of my mind.  I don't trust it to stay away.  Yet I have to continue because my little granddaughter wants me to be around for a long, long time.  You see I am 55 and will soon turn 56.  And we all need to take a good clear look at where we are at and who we care for and live for them as well as ourselves.  Nothing in life is guaranteed but we can make the best of it while we are here.

Zena